Soaring Higher

Originally published: March 7, 2020

This morning as I was starting to tidy my room, I caught glimpse of a hawk, soaring above the railroad in front of my house.  His large wings spanned out, he was gliding in circles, like a very elegant helicopter.  Just as I had seen him, I had been talking to myself aloud, working out a problem that had been on my mind.  It was as if the moment I gained clarity in my thought-process, the hawk showed up as a confirmation that I was on the right path. 

Making decisions has always been challenging for me.  I tend to look at both sides, and if anything, every single angle involved, and scrutinize the fine print details that no one else cares to even scan read.  I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt, perhaps more often than I should. Even at last, when I do make a final choice and action out my plans, I keep the other possibilities brewing on the back-burner, until sometimes all the water has evaporated and even the pot begins to burn.  This is all a lengthy metaphor for my indecisiveness, but the truth is, I am working on trusting my own intuition more so that I don't doubt the choices, actions, and decisions I make, especially those that are truly the right thing for me.  

The other problem I tend to face is worrying about how the decisions I make will affect the other person.  I have been known to choose the option that makes the other party more comfortable.  This quality is a double-edged sword because most of the time, I end up losing.  I am all for making sure that there is compassion and empathy for others.  I truly think if we all lived by this, the world would be a better place, however, that mentality should include the concept that we need those for ourselves first.  Without this self-protection, we risk other people taking us for granted or even worse, questioning if what we are doing is wrong.

Back to the hawk.  I saw him fly further in the distance and then he was nothing but a tiny dot in the blue sky and I went back to cleaning.  When I looked up again a little while later, I saw him once more, soaring higher, his wings looking huge and mystical.  I decided to run out and take a photo of him, but by the time I made it out the door, he was nowhere in sight.  I stood around for a bit, waiting for him to return.  I snapped some pictures of the sky, hoping that I’d come across his figure with my telescope of a lens.  Nothing.  He had probably caught his prey and no longer needed to hunt. 

Hawks have a very special meaning.  They are one of the animals represented on a totem, they are a symbol for optimism, and today I felt that hawk came as an omen.  Just as I had mouthed some words to myself was the exact moment I looked up and saw him.  Here is what it confirmed:  My consciousness takes me higher and helps me see things from a bigger perspective.  Yes, I was mulling over some issue I wanted to resolve, but seeing him up there, high above the trees, I was able to acknowledge my own insight.  I knew at that moment I had stumbled on a thought that was affirming.  I watched him briefly the first time and felt a true sense of power, almost like when you guess something and find out you are right.  Everyone around you asks, “How did you know?”  You say, “I just had a feeling.”

My consciousness takes me higher and helps me see things from a bigger perspective.

This inspired me to feel confident in myself and in the decisions that I make.  Seeing everything from so high up can help to uncover why we do the things we do and even further, how we can make better choices with more information.  I think that my willingness to make sure all bases are covered is a good quality to have, that way things are thorough and every perspective is considered.  The hawk also made me realize that from that higher place, from a conscious mindset, the decisions have to be ultimately the ones in which we are deeply drawn to.  This means it may not be the one that everyone is happy with, but if it is the right one in your heart, then trust it.

I did manage to snap a photo of the hawk, after he flew around for a third and final time.  He was much farther than before but I thought I’d share for anyone who needed a hawk omen today.

Baci e abbracci:)

Basha